Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage

There's no one in town I know
You gave us someplace to go
I never said thank you for that
Thought I might get one more chance

What would you think of me now?
So lucky
So strong
So proud
I Never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go
May angels lead you in

What would you think of me now?
So lucky
So strong
So proud
I Never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go
May angels lead you in

And if you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
A song for a heart so big
God couldn't let it live

May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go
May angels lead you in

May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go
May angels lead you in

I have been having a great time over the past couple of weeks.  The new change in weather has certainly brought out the new me. 

When I was on Boston, I was able to see the movie "maid of honor" .  What a great romantic movie!   The end of the movie they played this great remake from Don Henley's "heart of the matter.  The performance was done by India Arie.  I suggest everyone should check it out!

 

 

 

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

Rain falling in a paper cup
Got her head turned down and her collar pulled up
There’s a sorrow in her eye and a sadness in her sigh
But she ain’t gonna talk unless you come again, come again
Sitting on a curb in the afternoon
Watching colors dance around like her feet to a tune
You know she knows she knows she knows
There goes it goes it goes
You better come again

Chorus:
I got a lot to learn baby . . .
So please won’t you teach me
I got a lot to learn baby
And everybody wants a shot at you darling

Oh she said
You can’t help me if you’ve never been
Got my head filled up with the memories of everything
And I can never sleep ‘cause the shuffle of the feet
Always pounding in my brain like a hurricane
Still I can see your open hand
If you can’t let me near, then I can’t help you stand
I’ve got nothing to complain about
Nothing I can shout about
Maybe I could bust you out

Chorus

And you don’t care about tomorrow
You just stand out in the rain
And if you listen you can hear
That I’m the one whose got his hand out looking for a little change

I though about all the things I have ever wanted and I have yet to come up with something.  I mean something so heartfelt and gripping that it literally tears your heart open and makes you scream because you can't take the pressure.

We were asked to think about this and I had the hardest time...now I can so remember.  I remember the time I was in love with someone I couldn't have.  I don't think I wanted then as much as I led myself to believe.   It's  notb because I was totally in love with the person.  I mean come on, how can you love some one that you don't even know.  I wanted the person because I wanted to get to know them.  Something entrigued me...obviously!  I wanted what I want when I want it.

Yeah I know selffish!  Now I really still want them but not just cause.  I really do want to get to know the person.  I can't stop thinking about what makes the person tick. 

I am thinking, I am not totally sure what makes me tick!!